Thinking of a vr meaningful quote that a vr special fren told me b4. It reminds me of some old days n old stories.... which always come across my mind but I try so hard not to remember them... I read back some things he wrote to me... And I feel that I might have miss out something. But it's no use to regret now.... Our lives now can be described as two parallel lines, which will never across each other.... But I know that I'm hoping something, though understand that nothing will ever happen again....
Sigh.... Keep thinking of some weird things recently. Is it because of great stress.... I might be smiling at people, but do I really feel happy at the same time? Sometimes really hate myself for being hypocrite. But this is human nature.... never let others see ur negative side... Do I really satisfied wt my life? Life is unpredictable.... I hv no confidence in myself... But I cannot show it to others. Though it's hard for myself, but still hv to work vr vr hard and show up in confident look. Study so much bout psychology n philosophy recently. But what have I learn actually? I don't even clear bout myself. What is my philosophy of life? Struggling hard in studies for unknown future??? Or relax n enjoy the vr now moment??? I'm confused........
He used to console me whenever I hv such weird ideas. He was the best person to turn to. But.... something juz won't happen anymore. Is it possible for us to return to the past???
Sigh..... Weird thinking..............
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