dreams vs reality

I had another long, long sleep again. Back in room around 3pm since the noon class is cancelled. Then surf internet for a while before went to sleep at about 4pm. It was 8.30pm when I finally woke up. Phew~~ A long and nice sleep has seemed to ease my terrible headache. Oh, I forget to mention about the headache that has interrupted my life for the past three or four days.

Well, the headache started on Friday night. The left half part of my head was in pain. And it was so terrible until I could feel the pain at my teeth. I started to suspect that it's a migraine caused by stress, as I have been feeling depressed and down lately. But maybe it's because that I am too heaty. So, I have been drinking large amount of water and eating lots of fruits for the weekend.

Have been eating painkillers before sleep lately. If not, the pain will really make me suffer and unable to sleep. Well, I did try not to eat painkiller as I know its side effects and I am afraid that I will get addicted to it, but then I felt so suffering until I almost bang my head onto the wall during a sleepless night.

Hope that it will be better. If not, I will need to see a doctor.

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Chatted with Raymond and TeckPeng just now. TP went to find Ray in BP and he used Ray's msn to chat with me. He asked me about boyfriend. And I showed my pathetic of still being alone (actually not so pathetic la..). And he is being very encouraging to me.

He said, "Even though we are not really very familiar with each other and we rarely spend time together. But from how much I know about you, I think that guys will be attracted by your good personality. I am sure that there are guys around you already attracted by you. But just that they never realise it and do not reveal it to you... "

Well, is that true? I don't know. But it's really warm to see a sincere, comforting and encouraging comment from a friend, especially when he is not a friend that I always hang round with. This has really brighten up my day~!

Thanks, TP.

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About my question on the other day.. "If you can choose your life, will you choose back the one that you are leading now?"

TK, "No comment for the time being.."

KS, "huo zai dang xia.."

I have come to realise that actually it is kinda foolish of me to think about something that is not going to happen. And it is really a waste of time to think about something that is impossible. We will never have the right to choose our lives, so what is the point of pondering about it?

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My personal message in msn for the day is "理想 vs 现实" (dreams vs reality). So, Niu pop up a while ago and commented...

Niu, " so dream n reality, u choose wat? "

Me, " well.. i do not hv d right to choose actually.. reality is sth tat i must face.. "

Niu, " hmm.. macam answer in miss world pageant like tat.. "

And he offline soon before I can ask him about his choice. He is always in a rush. Like a mysterious wanderer in msn.

It seems like I have been spending time on some questions which are so difficult to answer recently. What is inside my head actually? Why am I asking so many questions? Do I really need answer for all of my questions?

I myself also do not have any answer to this...

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It's late, I should go to bed. No more headache while sleeping, I hope. And my simple wishes for my friends...

Good luck to cy for the presentation.

And good luck to Diana who has started new life in Perak.

Good night, world.