self deceiving

Who will approach you in a sense of concern when seeing you with the kinda negative nickname or personal message in msn messenger?

Two of my contacts did so today.

Evelyn (my cousin who is two years older than me) send me messages when seeing my personal message is = in self deceiving mode = this noon. She is pretty worried with this negative statement.

And also JJ, when seeing me used back my very old nickname about the mad world and my personal message sounds i am mad as well...... . He told me that "anger will people age faster " as he thought that I was angry over something. Hmm... He misinterpreted what I mean with the word "mad". I just want to bring out the idea that this is a crazy world and I am crazy as well.

Oh well, nothing serious actually. I am just feeling lost in my current and future life. I really have no idea of why am I being so busy all the time. (At least, I THINK that I am busy.) I have tonnes of work to be completed. But I just have no idea for what the hell am I busying for. So there is nothing I can do but just to deceive and convince myself that "Life is going to be better tomorrow!", "Tomorrow will be a better day!", "There is always new hope tomorrow!", and bla bla bla... But deep in my heart I know that things just will not be better tomorrow.

Sound contradicted, right?

But, who is really clear in mind with what he/she really want? Who is really doing the actual things to pursue what he/she intended to achieve? And, who is really leading the kind of life that he/she desired to?

I THINK (actually CONFIRM) that I am not. Do you?

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So another week is over. It is going to be the 12th week of the semester soon. Life is still dull, and meaningless.

(I am so keen in posting pictures in my blog recently. Why? Hmm.. I am just trying to make my life more colorful and not so dull with only words, words and words.)

Here are some pictures of the lab work I have been doing recently.

Potassium dichromate and oxalic acid were measured, grounded into fine powder, and mixed up in a damp mortar. In seconds, they will react and become black-greenish solid.

This is amazing! Orange color + white color + some water will turn out to some blackgreen-ish things! (Well, I DO think that chemistry is amazing at times.)

Then some ethanol is added and the mixture is heated on a hot plate until it dries up and solidifies.

(Hot plate is a great invention. But I miss the old days in seconday school lab work with Bunsen burner... Lab is kinda fun with Bunsen burner!)

Finally, ground the solid into fine powder. And this is the potassium dioxalatoaquochromate that I have produced from potassium dichromate and oxalic acid.

* applause *

Proudly present to you my product!!!

(I am crazy liao...)

So I am going to use this product for the next determination steps in my experiment. The names of the compounds formed in this experiment are sooooo long that I even lazy to type it over here =p

And one more thing, the lecturer wants the lab reports to be handwritten. He wants to prevent us from "copy and paste" from other's work.

$)*^&%$!#~%$&*#)*%

What kind of ridiculous reason is that? I can also copy people's work with my handwriting!

Stupid!!!