Mad

Time flies... Another week is over and there are only three days left for me to read the thick notes and materials of Geology. I am still lazy as usual, unable to do what I have planned earlier with strong determination. I am really kinda fed up with myself at times =s

Sigh... As time goes by, I find that I am actually a very terrible person with a lot of weaknesses and bad habits. What is actually good in me? I am getting more and more fierce and sarcastic (maybe rude?) to people. I rarely give friendly smile to others. Is it because that I am too stressed in my life? Or just maybe I am already feeling numb with this world?

I cannot speak in a decent way. I mean... I often utter dirty words while talking with others. It has long become a habit of mine. I am really very rude and impolite. Ya, I know it but I just never change this habit.

I believe that everyone knows millions of ways to improve themselves to become a better person with better personality. But, how many people can actually do it? Maybe there are, but I am not one of them...

The more I grow up, the more negative is my thinking towards myself, my future and the entire world. There are too many crazy, cruel and even ridiculous things I have seen, heard or read. I really cannot imagine or assume that it is going to be better in future. Tomorrow is going to be better?! That is just some plain lies to deceive people.

This is a mad world. People are mad. So do I.