Second paper

Spent a whole night practising with the past year exam questions for Educational Statistic. I have pain all over my body after sitting and writing in front of my table for long hours.

Woke up early this morning and repeated the same procedures. It rained heavily while I was on my way to the exam hall. I was half-drenched when I arrived at the hall. And it was damn freezing in the hall as the air-conditioner in the hall is producing cold air at a freaky low temperature. It was so difficult to write under such a freezing condition.

Anyway, I still able to answer everything. But my hands were almost numb, as it was too cold. The exam is not difficult. I should be able to score well in it =)

I can finally pack some notes into my pink box. It is meant for the notes which have retired!

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TK is going home tonight. He asked me whether want to tumpang his car back home or not. At first I do think of going home but later I find it quite a waste of time and money. As I will just be able to stay for not even two days at home and I need to pay him for the petrol. So I was still considering about it this noon.

When a friend of mine knew that I might be going home for the weekend. She asked in a damn surprised tone, "How can you go home? We have exam next week ler.. You really should not go home... "

Ya, I know that exam is coming. But so what? Tell me, which law state that one cannot travel home when exam is coming? Must I be holding the book and read it for more than a thousand times until I can memorise everything from head to toe and from toe to head? For me, that is really ridiculous!

I wonder what is the purpose of having exam... Is it the one and only one important great event for a semester? Everyone is taking it as something SO important until they give up their sleeping time, shopping time, and other leisure life just because "exam is coming!"

I am not saying that it is not good to read books. But, if one only read when exam is around the corner, what is the point? Is it for gaining knowledge, or is it just merely for getting good results in exam?

I do my work pretty well all the time. I have my own pace in maintaining my performance. I know what I am good at, and what I am weak at. So, please do not tell me that "exam is coming so you must read your books", "exam is coming so you cannot go out", or "exam is coming so you cannot sleep too much", as if sleeping or going out to buy something or watch a movie is something sinful.

I hate listening to all those craps telling me not to do this or not to do that just because "exam is coming". Life still have to carry on even with or without exam, isn't it?

I do have my side of rebellion. So I will never read crazily for the notes over and over again as if I am going to memorise all the single words and vomit them onto the answer sheet during exam. That is not my style! I will still sleep a lot as usual. I will still spend plenty of time on internet as usual. I will still go shopping or watch movie as usual. What's wrong with it?

I would prefer truly understanding of what is being learnt rather than just memorising everything without understanding them. I have my own pace of preparing myself for the exam. Please do not regulate me with your view or your way. I will only find it irritating.

Yeah, go ahead to read and memorise every little words in your books for a million times if you are going to write all the same words in the exam instead of expressing the idea that you understood in your own words. But please, do not ever tell me to follow your way of learning. (Oh! That is not learning! That is memorising!)

I hate it, I really hate it.